
this is what EVERYONE who sees me with the 4 in tow says
here in lies the rub
I think that the mere mention that i am in over my head resonates somewhere within
and i begin to doubt.....for example
last night at Angelo's softball game, a nice work wife was watching my kids RUN WILD
then turned to me and
" man you must sleep well at night...they are ACTIVE"
well that was a fairly nice thing to say...im sure in no way meant to break me down
but what do you suppose happened
i got to thinking
....i am tired
...i am always tired
...they are a lot of work
...should i have to work so hard
then i felt like crying...then i took the kids to the car & CRIED
but as I was watching the laundry swirling in the washer this morning i thought to myself
Yeah, its a lot a work
yep, not every day is rewarding or even easy for that matter
but who's plan was it that my life should be EASY, 24-7 FUN
isn't the TRUE meaning of reward getting something for DOING {etc} something
so how then if I don't work....don't teach......don't clean.....don't do anything that I don't want to how then will i be rewarded & FOR WHAT
so
i gotta find some way not to get all flipped out when a somewhat silly OBSERVATION is made
maybe it'll go something like this
"MY you do have your hands full, don't you"
out loud I'll respond
"yup"
in my mind I'll say
" yeah FULL of ETERNAL REWARD"
......or something like that